My Biggest Challenge
I think that I and the world around me have placed such a value on how much we make, we have started setting the values of our personal self by how much our paycheck is. The problem for myself and many women is, there is not paycheck for the stay at home mom. We don’t get a break from our desk to go to a meeting, there is no “break time” and we don’t get to “clock out” at noon and go have a nice lunch with friends. There are no coveted promotions, or getting a better office. Five o’clock is not going to end our work day, only add to what we have already been doing all day long,
Why do we do it? Give up the office, the paycheck, the pats on the back, and the knowledge of a “job well done” and for me the absolute high I got helping a family or a patient find the right product to help make the patient more comfortable or enjoy a better quality of life. Well I’ll tell you, for me I am hoping that I get that same “high” watching my kids grow up learning my values and my morals. I hope that I teach them about life and the things they are going to need to know about. I hope that by me giving up my career during their childhoods, that when they grow up, they can talk about how much their mom was home with them and always there when they needed me, and that they don’t ever stress about if someone can take the day off because they are home sick from school, or that if they need a chaperone for a school trip, they can volunteer mom without wondering if I would be able to make it. I hope that my kids feel like that I am here to teach them and raise them to the best of my ability. I hope they learn to soar, and experience all the things children should experience all the while having the cocoon of mom wrapped tightly around them until the time comes when they wiggle out of the cocoon and become adults.
I hope this how it works out, for now though, finger painting, flying kits, and spending days at the playground are a whole lot of fun. I never realized you could go to the zoo, spend 2 hours staring at only a few animals could be fun. Looking at “elephant butts” and how big animal poop could be so fasinating, but most importantly, I sure am glad that I am the one to be there to see it, and that he shared his time with me.
So maybe my biggest challenge isn’t me giving up my career and all of the things that go with it, but when the time comes that my children don’t need me, when they can fix their own boo boo’s, and they go to the zoo to enjoy more than just the poop, I guess that will be my biggest challenge, giving up my childrens childhood. I sure hope that’s a long way away.
October 16th, 2003 - Posted in Uncategorized | |
